I think I slept a little better on Monday. Today I woke around 5 and could not get back to sleep. Didn’t have the thought spirals though.
Yesterday my aunt texted me via WhatsApp. She was responding to another post I made regarding how I keep waking up in the middle of the night and can’t get back to sleep. She has been working in psychiatry for 28 years. My sleep issue, according to her, is a classic Hallmark of depression. She implored me into looking at medical help.
It certainly fits with a lot of what I’ve been experiencing. I thought I had crawled out of that hole decades ago, but I suppose that demon has always slinking been around. The events of the past 6 months, coupled with all the loss from last year, seemed to have super charged it.
I do plan on talking with her more about the details, and all the stuff I’m dealing with now that is contributing. I am trying to remove those factors but factors outside of my control make it very slow going. The question is can I recover without the medication when I eliminate those issues?